New semester started already

Finally can study liao~

But, I got 1 subject failed in exam last sem, which is Managing People and Performance, I failed!! damn it!

So, either got to retake the subject or do another subject will be my option. Sigh

This semester I got 5 subjects got to taking. Stress arr~

But never mind, I will do my best!! To get a good result, I must study hard and do more revision~

Learn from others as well..

Below is the subjects I taking this sem:

From left to right ya: 

advanced research methodology, career guidance and prep for psy 2, learning and cognition,conflict theory, consumer behaviour

(the note book is given by my darling ^.^)

currently I have been attended the consumer behaviour class only, the rest will be start on 5th of Sept.

So I only tell a little bit about consumer behaviour. I am very headache about consumer behaviour because its 100% work, means which have no exam at the end. Its con and pro as well.. sigh, Im very scare of group assignment, because i don really like to work with others.. and its not easy to have a good partners.. sigh

But nevermind, can pratice myself to work with other, so that i can get use to it in my life and do more interactions with others, and as i know the partners are not perfect to me, I will do my best to get better result~ 

Oh ya! I bought 2 english books for self learning to improve my language strength~ as below:

I found that these 2 books have no answer provide for the exercises.=.= wat the hell~

Luckily I got a best friend who is english education background can mark for me~ thanks her so much~ muakss!

3rd sem exam result

Sigh~ got happiness also got sadness...
A bit disappointed to myself, my SU electives subjects got not really pretty result, my Managing people and Performance failed and got to retake it. While Business Skills 2 got grade 8 which considered lower second class grade.. really shame, sigh~

But my psychology subjects got not bad, at least got improved ^.^
Today I just bought 2 English learning books for self study to improve my language. If want to survive in college life, the 1st thing to do is improve your english, and you only can do well in your study.

1st clubbing in my life

Finally I step in club "Fuel" in auto-city, with my bf and his friends.

First I step in, just saw everyone stand at their place, and in front got a live band, so song very loud.

Seriously, how many people there I don't know, because I don't know them. I saw almost everyone start to shake their body with the music, but I don't feel want to shake, maybe the atmosphere not as I thought. 

So I just keep drinking the beer, honesty, its not tasty, I miss Over Time already, haha.

As I keep drinking, but I know I did not over drink. I start felt dizzy as usual when i drink alcohol. To prevent letting people know I dizzy, I got to move my body with the music too, and it was fun, I start feel funny, and keep laughing (ofcoz not tat obvious, people didnt know 1). And I back at around 1am, honesty, I can't even walk properly, I fell down somemore outside the club =.=

And start talked nonsense to james, I not that bad ya? because I know what had I done on that day. 

After I reached my house, I took long time to open the lock of my gate =.=, and took long time to climb to my room (there is staircase to my room), and I can't found my mobile phone, went down again use home phone to call james for knowing where is my phone he placed. 

After that I went to vomit everything out in my toilet, and fall asleep on my bed.

But next day, I got a serious headache I never tried before, and I still not yet awake from alcohol, because I can't walk straight forward =.=. 1st time in my life got a serious drunk, sigh.

Stomach don't felt well, and vomit again, its empty in my stomach, so nth come out, but as I know, its really suffer. Thought everything will fine after 1st vomit, but who knows, I still haven't get well from suffering, stomach didnt feel well whole day, and I got to beware do not vomit on the floor.

Thought drinking plain water will help me to reduce the suffer, but, once i drink, I got to run to toilet after few minutes, and throw out the water.=.=... really suffer. sigh

3 weeks without dad

It's already 3 weeks without dad. If I said I already use to it in short term, I am sure that a lot of people will said I'm not a good daughter. Yup, honesty I already use to it.

If my dad still alive and he was leave home, I will miss him and ask him to come back then. But the truth is he already gone, a death person which the soul might in different dimension which we can't see, touch and hear. So I'm not going to be stubborn and hypnosis myself that my dad still alive and he will back to us 1 day. I won't do that!! I just want my dad to rest in peace and don't worry about us, he now in his world and his own stuff. Not I don't want to show that how sad am I on my lost, because I know what am I doing. 

I'm not going to pretend GOOD daughter in front people, because I am who I am. And seriously, I don't like people asking me how well am I after my dad gone, am I use to it or not, etc. Because I know that, if I say I use to it, I'm not sad at all now, people sure will doubt of me and pointing on me beside I don't feel like be over concern by others as well. So I rather people ignore my lost, just talk to me as usual is very helpful for me. 

Honesty, I feel comfortable without dad. Maybe he gave too much pressure when he was alive, under the pressure, I always felt scared and worried, even when go out with friends. But now, I got my freedom, and I enjoy it. Do not point on me, because I know what others will think of me. But I am just tell what my feeling now. And I'm not happy that my dad pass away, just feel there is no much pressure already. Still miss him even I'm enjoy my life now.