After 2years of dating, 3 years of marriage, now coming to divorce stage.
People asked me, the reason to end the marriage.
I couldnt tell more. I could just said, I had experienced the disappointments.
I learned to be reserve, being mature in relationship and thinking after the first relationship i had experience with heart broken after all the love and trust i had given to.
So the second relationship which i had go through the dating stage and marriage.
My personality was bold eversince. I choose the person, i bear with the consequences even after i know he might not the right one. I told myself, i would falling in love after married as how i falled in love in my first relationship.
But i was wrong. His personality, thinking, and some other perspectives are totally crash with mine. I told myself to accept the person as whole. I tried to, and commincated with him. But what I get is his ignorance. Ignore my worries of our future, he still living comfortably in his comfort zone. While i was the one insecure with all of these. I strive for better future, better living quality, while he thinks that current is good enough, while we were having financial crisis. I am enough with all of these worries and insecure, i told him how i felt, but what i got was he thinks thats because i was overthinking, everything will be fine after years. But i truly know that, things would not getting better if we do not do anything to make sure things work. I talked about divorce, he also thinks that its not an issue, i was finding something to argue about. I know, after years of being together, he never tried to understand me and my needs. I know all his thoughts and even what is playing in his mind. I can simply just voice out on behalf of him for whatever he does not know how to express. But, for me, he never ever able to voice out my thoughts and feelings.
About divorce, he also never show the attitude that he cares about me, that he needs me in our family. He just left the responsible on me as the decision maker. I am really enough. I had move out, for the beginning, everyweek i asked him, what is his thoughts, what actions he is going to take. Nothing, i get no answer for my questions. He didnt able to answer with just simple word which is that i need you, i hope we do not go through divorce and take actions on how we going to change our life.
Not even a message or a call.
Ya, i am done. I am thank to god for sharping my personality which make me strong, bold and independent.
