Recently James not much concern about me. Am I too sensitive? Or other else? I don't know.
But it's true that James does not concern about me much as last time, it just recently. Ignore my advice, my worry, my concern, he keeps telling me that I'm think too much and sensitive. But what I can feel is base on what had he done.
The frequent he drinks alcohol, smoking, clubbing, and even the time he lim teh with his friends does increase, last time he still knew I worry or else, he will back at midnight, but recently, he back around 2 or 3 pm. I just don't know what can I say and do. Because we argue for this for few times d, and I really don't know what else I can do, I just feel like he now cares of himself and his friends more than me till he forgot he got a girl friend who waits for him and need him anytime. I really feel upset recently, I'm lost. Where is feeling had gone? Is him the guy I want as my partner? and yes, he is. But I don't know whether he can lives in my heart till we get marry in the future, if he still keeps doing what he likes, I really can't promise and sure. I really hope he can realize that I really need him, not this kind at this moment.
He can play his game while having supper with me and his friend, I was there beside him!! he just playing his game! wtf! not I too control what he doing, but I don't like the feeling he leave a side and he play his game which is not much important, and let me felt I'm not important as his game. It's so ironic u know, damn it hate the feeling so much.
